evil homme

life is good

2011-04-26T10:25:00.000-07:00

i love my family. good year so far. astrid's about to turn one. fun summer ahead. baby pool, grilling outside with a blue moon in hand, melody's etsy store is up-and-running, my new band is coming together, about to start on my chestpiece, etc. if only i didn't have to buy a new car i could get a bike. looking to get either a harley sportster or a honda rebel which would have to be bobbed out to look good. that will come though. a few notes to leave on.

10.7.10

2010-10-06T21:48:00.000-07:00

i am awake too late. having deciding to watch dead snow just now, which is by the way amazing, i decided it was time to enjoy a glass of wine. i always stay up late when i drink wine. it makes me think. not always of things that are, but also things that aren't, weren't and haven't happened. looking forward to moving into my first house next month. the bruneau clan is coming along nicely. astrid is five months old now and more beautiful than imaginable. examples:

yeah she is amazing. every day is better than the last, and you really don't need much entertainment outside of watching your child grow and do ridiculous things. i'm also glad that fall is coming. i lack inspiration during the spring and summer. it's just not my time. the top ten records of the upcoming fw 10-11 season are as follows (but in no order):

watain - lawless darkness

death in june - brown book

burzum - hvis lyset tar oss

jotunspor - gleipnirs smeder

tragedy - vengeance

black sabbath - master of reality

christian death - catastrophe ballet

ulver - shadows of the sun

ragnarok - arising realm

shining - IV the eerie cold

i am a firm believer in the idea that soundtrack can provide feeling just as much as weather or appearance so why not coordinate everything together? the cover of black sabbath's "solitude" on ulver's shadows album alone is worth staying in on a night to listen to. all good things. also, into the new odyn vovk SS 10-11 more than FW 10. more appealing looks.

he's really nailing it with his more recent stuff. i love the weathered denim, the raw edges on the vests and jeans, the use of texture to bring interest to simple drop pants. shit is good. on another note, let me in looks good. although let the right one in just came out two xmas ago, i think this is a good'n. we will see. my glass is empty and my wife calls silently from the bed. i leave on this memory of last years winter in an attempt to call upon the gods of winter!

11910

2010-01-19T13:00:00.000-08:00

it's proving to be a great winter. snow already (although it wasn't much), the new lair is the shit, the baby is going to be a GIRL! i am so fucking excited about her. her name will be Astrid Lynn Bruneau (astrid means beautiful in norse). her due date is may 1 so the we are pretty much just waiting around for her. melody is doing so well. no sickness, past the fatigue, and she actually did some modeling for a pregnant line just recently which is tight. we just had her birthday this past friday and it was beautiful. we ate at 4th and swift which was fucking phenomenal. i enjoy a good dress-up here and there. example:

life is good. on top of good life, i've recently taken up sewing in an effort take my clothing ideas to another level. i've really started with basic deconstruction and reconstruction. the template is beautiful. the fall 09' helmut lang gauze s/s:

and this piece has served me well to redo countless shirts, including a few band shirts that fit terribly. next on the list is taking a basic cotton-knit and starting fro scratch. i'm sure i'll be able to make that work though. by the way, i finally found the clothing made specifically for me. ODYN VOVK. a line based out of L.A. by Austin Sherbanenko basically catering towards those who love a fitted-form, black metal, punk fashion, minimalist detail and leather. a few of my favorite looks:

on a final note, gorgoroth's "black mass krakow 2004" dvd is the jam. such blasphemy and so many hot tracks. it is the current background material. i close on this final, very bruneau, black metal winter 2010 moment.

kvlt days

2009-11-25T09:49:00.000-08:00

news news news. firstly, i am finally updating again from my new place with my WIFE melody! so much has happened since the last update. melody and i got married, we are pregnant, i moved back to the virginia highlands van michael, my head is buzzed clean, etc. i am happier than i could ever be. if the baby is a girl it will be named astrid, and if it is a boy it will be named adrian. it will no doubt be the most beautiful, badass baby to walk among us. also, so many things to write about. first off, it is a black metal season. from now until april, almost nothing else will be played in my stereo. the top five records right now are as follows:

satyricon - rebel extravaganza.

craft - fuck the universe.

mayhem - de mysteriis dom sathanas.

immortal - all shall fall.

darkthrone - transilvanian hunger.

(btw, the TNRM book by Peter Beste is my most prized coffee table book.)

so much inspiration for this coming season also. gareth pugh, rick owens, dior homme, chronicles of never, komakino, helmut lang, photography, films (i.e. hellraiser and the matrix namely). a few key pieces i will be picking up soon.

i am most excited about the boots as they were the most note-worthy piece in kris' first dior campaign, and i found them for a near steal. AND anti-sweden jeans. fucking jeans made my norwegians who love norwegian black metal, hate swedes, and limit pressings to 666 pairs per design! the first pair of jeans to ever actually call my name!

i plan on so many things coming this fall/winter. first and foremost, to be the best husband i can possibly be. secondly, i'd like to start a quasi-solo black metal project. i'd also like to dabble in a lot of altering/designing of clothing myself. blah blah. oh before i forget, i've been meaning to upload pictures of some of my paintings for months, but i had lost the usb cable. well i finally found it so here a few are.

click to view bigger pictures. now i must make my way off to work.
T.N.B.M.!

i, assassin

2009-06-09T19:43:00.000-07:00

right now:

-nip/tuck seasons 2 and 3.
-gareth pugh fall 09 menswear.
-record shopping.
-painting.
-home-made summer(muscle) shirts.
-early gary numan.
-10-14 lace boots.
-dateaphobia.
-aspiring to get into the hellraiser series.
-planning a trip to berlin come summer's end.

also, the new cheap monday shirts are quite tasty. examples:

also, look of inspiration for summer.

and already plotting for the design concept of my next apartment. hoping to meet the current black, more traditional gothic look with my love for contemporary clean lines and minimalism.

"i'm just a painting that's still wet.
if you touch me i'll be smeared
you'll be stained...
stained for the rest of your life."

Its cold outside

2009-05-17T20:36:00.000-07:00

um... amazing.

very busy lately. all good things. my right sleeve is coming along beautifully, pictures available soon. painting is completely flowing. i feel inspired in fashion by so many things that are completely uncharacteristic of spring/summer. also, a trip to berlin will more than likely be happening at summer's end. let me suggest my infatuation right now:

the informers (book and film)

next to american psycho this is my favorite bret easton ellis story. set in los angeles in 1983, the story is basically about relates the excess of the eighties to los angeles, and how at the time and place you really had to be a terrible person in some way. phenomenal. i haven't been that bummed by a film since requiem for a dream. it also inspired my to buy bigger ray ban wayfarers. see exhibit b.

again, gary numan is awesome.

i am living, loving, and doing whatever i want.

4/22

2009-04-22T21:26:00.000-07:00

strength in solitude

umbrella

2009-04-10T19:18:00.001-07:00

i'll start off with these videos (which are to be played while reading).

so i'm going to address two things here. first off, lady gaga is a pop-culture abomination. how could so many people be so in to her? she blatantly rips on her direct influences in everything she does. in one video i looked into she ripped freddie mercury, early-nineties madonna, bowie, AND manson. she uses all of this "different" visual accompaniment to simply mask one thing: her music sucks cock. it is the most typical, mundane modern electronic pop i've heard since kanye west began chugging on daft punk's cocks. she sucks and i'd like to boycott her life.

secondly, i'm discovering some new things that i'm just too late in the year (or too early) to still pull inspiration from. first being from a british designer named gareth pugh. his fall 09 collection is great with the exception of a few details. here are some of my favorites:

it's growing increasingly difficult to find new designers that can speak to me, and this dude is going it. apparently he loves the film predator? could that possibly explain the occasional alien-like headpieces that i love so much? possibly. as of right now the next pair of boots i am looking to purchase are the demonia riot 12 lace boots.

i'd rather a level, crepe sole but i think these are just fine. at only 110 bucks, i'll take whatever sole these shoes have for as good as they look otherwise.

i honestly don't feel like doing much tonight. i've got a vanilla coke zero, twizlers licorice, bauhaus - in the flat field on in the background, and a painting in mind. that sounds like a fairly warm reception in my own alleged cave.

beauty and the beast

2009-04-07T21:08:00.000-07:00

i am obsessing over david bowie at the moment.

why do i have such a soft spot for theatrical singers? manson, bowie, danzig, curtis, etc. at any rate, his berlin period is something i'm dabbling in right now, but nothing does it more for me than diamond dogs. although "heros" may or may not give it some competition for the moment.

which brings me to another current interest of mine. the occult. i've been interested in studying the occult for some time, and i bought aleister crowley's "moonchild" just recently. i haven't gotten to far in too it, but the fact that it is obviously good enough to have fields of nephilim's one big single named after it is good enough for me.

appearance wise though i am very into the look of jeans loosely laying atop boots again, or a more tapered dress pant cropped slightly higher.

i also love loose hanging accessories like chains or (my favorite right now) suspenders laying freely as an almost homage to the classic bondage pant. see exhibit below.

i'm feeling fairly inspired lately, and oddly enough a little late for my season. spring is turning out to be fairly drab so far which is fine by me.

monday

2009-03-23T10:48:00.000-07:00

this weekend was without question the craziest weekend i have had in quite some time. i went to florida to take part in my grandmother's wedding. she had been married to this turd for like thirty-something years and he died. she meets dick, dick immediately proposes and we wind up at the wedding three months later. firstly, florida is the armpit of america. such awful weather, and when you go to a place like clearwater you forget what life is like for all who are functioning, non-retired citizens. i digress. we find out that dick hyndes is a huge dick and my grandmother almost got an annulment immediately after the wedding. my mom almost kicked his ass, at which point i would have kicked his ass as well. after a long time i returned home to my wonderful girlfriend and we saw the watchmen. so good. time was not even a factor as i was on the edge during the entire movie waiting for the next twist. the silk spectre totally made melody think that i want to get her a pair of knee-high latex boots. i might though... anyways, today i bought the new collector's edition of bram stoker's DRACULA.

it's so much better than the original dvd. it contains a second disc that is entirely about the costume design, minimal set design, primitive filming technique, etc. that movie really is amazing and is to this day one of my favorite of all time. so here i set, heavily engaged in it and uploading my recently acquired collection of classical music. a few afterthoughts from the weekend.

from my home to yours

2009-02-25T17:33:00.000-08:00

absinthe makes the heart grow fonder.

Absinthe Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

2009-02-15T21:54:00.000-08:00

this weekend has been great. the W and crimson web with melody last night made for the best valentines to date. funny though, i hate valentines day yet this year was amazing because of my love. i feel like i need to share all of the beautiful things i am in to right now. another list is due.

films:
the Hunger.

and Velvet Goldmine.

which has also inspired me to go on a huge glam kick. leading me to these albums.

namely Bowie's Diamond Dogs.

which is an amazing album. by far the height of his seventies career.

Roxy Music's For Your Pleasure.

and as always, Marilyn Manson's Eat Me Drink Me.

which brings another point. i have spent a lot of time recently researching Manson. his imagery, lyrical content, etc. the new album appeals so much to me mostly because of it's heavy glam rock influence, but also because of the imagery he portrays comparing his current (former) love, his ups and his downs to life as alice tumbling down the rabbit hole. all of his albums, both lyrically and visually, has themes that portray such vivid pictures.

also demonia creeper boots.

and lucid absinthe.

i've decided to get back in to playing guitar also. i'd seriously like to play in a band. nothing would do me greater pleasure than playing dark rock in the front of the stage. this will come with time. something else to look forward to.

this where it starts. this is where it will end. here comes the moon again.

love song

2009-02-07T10:17:00.000-08:00

today is a great day. i woke up next to the girl i love, the weather is reasonably nice, and i'm sipping on an odwalla superfood. last night melody and i finally celebrated her birthday with dinner at sotto sotto and then the atlanta ballet's production of DRACULA. can i just say that it was all beyond expectations (despite a creepy geeked-out waiter). the ballet did a superb job bringing the story to the stage, and after almost three hours i still did not want it to end. oh, i finally have some pictures of my apartment.

and my OG crow comic collection that adorns the walls of my living room.

i also have a few pictures of melody and me up from the last month or so.

and so i must shower. for i must work tonight. i must work so that i may earn that check. i must earn that check so that i can fuel the economy. i must fuel the economy because it helps me sleep at night.

one twelve

2009-01-12T11:23:00.000-08:00

life is so good i can taste it in my spit. i have an amazing girlfriend who i would go as far as to say is my "singer" (twilight reference for fellow dorks), i have an amazing job at which i recently began training to become a cutting educator, and i have no worries or cares to call my own. the holidays were hectic but nice. i am glad they are over. i got some pretty on-point presents. some great records (namely david bowie - ziggy stardust and hunky dory), my new topman fang ring, and most notably this year the hardback Twilight collectors edition.

so i'll elaborate on twilight for a minute. right now i am almost halfway through the third book, eclipse, and i'm in love with this whole series so far. i'm over everyone who hates for the sake of hatin on these books. i stayed up until two last night, as well as many other nights, reading because i had to read what happened next. if melody is my addiction than these books are my vice. haha. if i'm quitting smoking i might as well have something else to binge on. after all of the money i spent during the holidays, my funds are finally replenishing themselves, and so i think about buying new things. first and foremost, a new car. once i am promoted onto the van michael floor i plan on buying a new car. i am looking into three at the moment.
mercedes c230 kompressor coupe (black):

audi TT:

and infiniti G35 coupe:

so without any complications one of these three will be at the mercy of my hands soon. i'm also looking into a new coat. all of my outerwear is either leather or too long. i need something like a pea-coat but better. i'm looking at this right now.

and let me tell how amazing these shoes are (and i've been wearing them every day).

i need to get off and read some more. too much computer.

2008-12-09T10:01:00.001-08:00

i fucking hate christmas musique. nevertheless, i am in a much better place this year than i was this time last year. i am happy. all is well, and i find peace with melody. i just finished twilight. it is amazing. so much different than the film. i intend on reading the entire series by february. i also intend on doing so in only hardback form. my apartment is nearing completion as far as decorating is concerned. pictures soon. love.

love is stranger than death

2008-11-23T22:45:00.000-08:00

so good. haters may hate for the sake of hating, but the movie is good (despite a few teen-appealing girly moments). tonight really made me think. i've come to the conclusion that the reason i love vampire stories so much is because more often than not they deal with an indescribable love. vampires have become a symbol of someone so love-sick that they will go to any length to find that one person. bram stoker's dracula is about a man who's love for his wife lives through 400 years to bring him to mina. interview with the vampire and the whole chronicle series is about men who seek the deepest companionship and who spend years upon years finding their other, be it man or woman. twilight is about a vampire who lives with the family of companions for almost a hundred year and when he meets bella his entire world changes and his every breath is spent either spent with her or protecting her. i love the idea that the feeling of love could live through death. even another of my favorite stories, the crow, is about a man who mourns the loss of his fiance in life so much so that is brought back to life to avenge her death and bring himself to peace with her. why i can find such light in stories like these is beyond me but i do. i feel great right now.

ich liebe den

2008-11-16T22:48:00.000-08:00

my good friend jude just recently shared a revelation with me. "the twilight series is going to spawn a whole new generation of goth girls in about three years." and a i think he couldn't be more right. haha. i see it coming back and it excites me. on a side note, i hate nike with a passion but i really want these shoes.

nike joy division prototypes. i'd never wear them, i just want them.
in short, watch this movie and take a load off.

sleepless

2008-11-12T14:21:00.000-08:00

it's 53 degrees outside. i am definitley wearing my black duffel coat comfortably. things have been fucking great. the last 24 hours summed up.

and now off to purchase my first couch. how completely fucking weird.

both guns blazing

2008-11-05T23:34:00.000-08:00

so on top of being turbo into these two soundtracks right now:

interview with the vampire by elliot goldenthal

and sleepy hollow by danny elfman

i've been browsing and i desperately want this absinthe set. it's by a new york based designer balled BBlessing. i feel as if my life would be complete once i'm drinking absinthe from my home using this shit.

last night was a great night. today has been a great day. tomorrow should be equally as promising for yours truly.

2008-11-03T21:31:00.000-08:00

so i'm laying in bed in my new apartment watching the craft (which by the way is tight). the new apartment is great although i've yet to paint. halloween has passed. november is upon us. life has been extremely busy. i'm ready for things to slow down. i'm also ready to play a show with crossbearer. i am itching to drum live. i'm itching to drum so bad in general. i've also on a mondo tim burton binge lately. i finally purchased the double-disc "nightmare", and i also bought corpse bride and busted sleep hollow back out. corpse bride is brilliant. the nightmare dvd also comes with the short "vincent" which is about a boy who wants desperately to be like vincent price. so also. i also decided that i'm collecting the crow comics:

also, i'm so stoked on being able to break out the leather. the weather is slightly warming up, but in two weeks it'll cool down again. life is good. the new cradle of filth is good. at the gates - slaughter of the soul is good. gulden draak is good. aveda cream foundation is good. i'm all over the place tonight. need sleep.

"Always a vision in black."

2008-10-25T09:37:00.000-07:00

so last night that is how i was greeted by a friend of mine. "sean, always a vision in black." haha. things have been great. moved into my new apartment with david. it's slowly coming together, but it won't be long before it does. pictures soon. i'm back at work after an agonizingly slow week and a half of idle-time. the weather has finally cooled down. as a matter of fact, i'm on the upper balcony at j.christopher's in a jacket/hoodie combo. i decided i'm going to visit california in the next six months. it's something i've always wanted to do, and i know enough people that i'd have a place to stay. i figure stay around orange co. for a few days and visit L.A. once or twice during that time, drive up to san fran and stay there for a day or two, and then i'd make my way home. off the subject, all i want to do this weekend is make it out to this phenomenal looking film.

not only does it look so tight, but it happens to open with my favorite song from the most recent manson album. all the more reason to see it. i'm excited about so many things coming up. first off, i'll be putting all of my money into the apartment. couch, rugs, frames for art and posters, book cases, etc. also let me say that creeper combat boots are my jam right now. they're amazing. they're 10 row basic combat boots, but they have a basic creeper sole. i'm going to head off to do some reading before work. i'll close with these two albums.

and

xo

boredom is killing me

2008-10-14T13:33:00.000-07:00

i'm off work for a week and a half due to heavy renovations in the salon. i want to die. hahah. i'm trying my best to keep myself busy whilst minimizing my purchases. i'll try to hold on on heavy purchases until i move in to the new apartment on monday. at any rate, two things are very up right now.
first, atmosfear the board game.

i don't know if anyone played this game growing up, or if i've just been dark from birth but this game is amazing. the only problem is that the original is VHS so i'll have to convert it if i buy it. anyways, the premice of the game is that you start off as a harbinger (a drifter), become one of six gnarly personalities (one of whom is elizabeth bathory), collect six key stones, and return to your hub where you conront your fear. it's so amazing, and i have every intention of purchasing the original, the remake, and playing both many times during the winter with candles ablazing and the new cradle of filth playing. which is where i address my next point.
for the last, i don't know, six years or so cradle of filth has gotten progressively shittier and shittier until now when i buy the new record, listen once to three or four songs, and throw in the discard pile. the new record however is going to be fucking amazing. it's called "godspeed on the devil's thunder" and the have reverted back to their faster more melodic days ala "dusk". although the album artwork sufficiently blows:

they need to lay off the computer bullshit. it's still going to be amazing though. this weekend was awesome. i finally got to see danzig. best shit ever. i need to go to the bathroom. i need to clean my apartment and pack. i need to cut someone's hair for money.

swing heil

2008-10-06T11:20:00.001-07:00

first of all, i love creepers. secondly, this album is the album of the moment. not only does is jam, but the lyrical and visual imagery are superb.

and upon reading an essay today comparing the albums lyrical content and imagery to 30's pre-nazi germany to hitler's rise to power i stumbled upon a familiar name. all of the photography and much of the albums imagery is attributed to a photographer named gottfried helnwein. his photographs are phenomenal, and i highly recommend everyone to look into his website. for instance, this is his first piece that i saw.

titled Modern Sleep I
anyways. starting saturday this week i have over a week off. i haven't the slightest idea what i am going to do with myself. hopefully i won't spend too much money as i won't be making any. i also move in two weeks. so excited. so ready. i think i've settled on a deep red/burgundy for the walls. i need to get off this goddamn machine. watch the hunger. live it.

itunes isn't working

2008-09-25T08:57:00.000-07:00

so five days until october and counting. i have already started to see a slight change in the leaves. the nights are in the fifties. mildly-attractive coffee-drinking women are wearing sweaters and light jackets. something about fall brings the me out in me, if that were at all possible. something about this make me excited.

at any rate, life is good. i signed a new lease at ford factory lofts with david. i can't decide whether or not i want to paint the walls black, dark gray, or a deep wine red. i don't want to paint the whole apartment black and have it be impossble for me to wake up in the morning. still, i'm excited. so many ideas. a few examples:

so excited. also, if i am transferred back to the highlands salon it'll be pissing distance away. hopefully that will happen. strangely my dad asked me for the second time the other night if i am neo-nazi. haha. i understand that i talk about it alot, and that to most my infatuation probrably seems unnatural, but it also comes with a respectful fear. i mean, that whole movement is fascinating from the visual aesthetic and propoganda used to the mystiscism used in the S.S. i've been on a solid 48 hour kick. i bought "the night porter" monday night which is a fucking phenomenal movie about an ex-S.S. officer who whilst attempting to erase his past ends up rekindling a relationship with a patient of his from a concentration camp. so good.

alright. so i have to leave to meet momma evil for lunch before work. i look foward to this weekend, i look foward to moving, i look foward to going back to sleep. xo

i wanna be adored

2008-09-16T18:41:00.001-07:00

so i just got in from minneapolis an hour ago. what a great city. it's laid out so pedestrian friendly, it has a huge downtown area, decent shopping, lots of bikes, etc. the show was went really well also. the van michael presentation on sunday was undoubtedly the best performance of the day. great reaction, beautiful hair, theatrics. the next day the team was scheduled to teach a three hour workshop to 45 people. 78 showed up. since i was hanging out and i'm a going to become an educator for the company soon they asked me to help teach! it was such a great experience while also being a sad one. some of the people that took the class have been cutting hair far longer than i and were completely and adamantly incompetent. still, the experience was good. i also partied wayyy to hard. every night from saturday to monday, and i'm definitely feeling it. it's so strange how something like aveda congress or any general hair show can bring out the wildest sides of people (namely hair stylists). i also missed my flight today on account of a few setbacks and sat at the airport for three hours. alas though, i am home and desperately need to shave. i'm going to rap up dinner here at the vortex and make the trip back home to crawl into bed for a much needed, well-earned early night. you don't have to sell my soul, he's already in me. i wanna be adored.

I'm ready fall

2008-09-10T17:04:00.000-07:00

September is turning into quite a busy month. nashville this last weekend was a blast. spent too much money and drank far too much guiness. bought a new fred perry travel set:

so stoked. got the toiletries bag to match it. i will be using said set this following weekend on my trip to minneapolis, minn. for aveda congress 08'. i'll be there from saturday to tuesday. the lows are projected to be around 45 degrees. new leather jacket and new prada beanie in full effect. also, on the way home from nashville i popped in bjork - homogenic. i forget sometimes how much i love bjork. she is so amazing. when she sings songs like joga something wakes up and melts inside of me all at the same time. watch this and tell me you aren't melting.

beautiful. words can't describe. anyways, the night is slowly going underway and i have many things i plan on doing. xo

we built this tomb together

2008-09-02T11:48:00.000-07:00

that's what's up for today. i feel out of it today.

it's all dick.

2008-09-01T13:07:00.000-07:00

so bauhaus "in the flat field" is a phenomenal record. this past weekend was so great. work was great, and every night dragon con was taken by storm. so many great characters there. i saw multiple lilus (fifth element), some great darth vaders, and i even saw bliss from bladerunner as i was leaving on the second night. many great photos were taken.

example:

on another note, this month is going to be so busy, and i am so ready for it. it seems like summer is such a shitty, hot, slow time. now that the weather is cooling down and things are transitioning into fall things are happening. next weekend i'll be making a journey up to nashville to see brian, the following weekend i'll be going to aveda congress in minneapolis, minnesota, and that's just the start. things are going great. i finally received the dior raw black jeans also and they are perfect. in fact, i'm wearing the as we type. i can't wait to get into the loft. i'm so anxious. i've got so many ideas. basically, it's going to look like this, minus my girl dita.

black concrete floors, black walls and ceilings, black velvet curtains, dim lighting, art where needed, i digress. so stoked. oh, and i forgot to mention my good friends david, zach and i are starting a new musical project. main influences include slowdive, joy division, sisters of mercy, and type 0's october rust album. it will be a relief once we finally get things moving as this has been a musical endeavor of mine for years. anyways, the day is young and i must be moving on to a quasi-cook out.

Deuce deuce

2008-08-26T10:06:00.000-07:00

I turned 22 yesterday. it feels weird because as much as i feel old already, at the same time i can't believe i am only 22. i got into hardcore at such a young age. i went on tour at 19. i lived with a girl at 19. i finished school at 20. i'm into my career at 22. everything seems as though it's happened so early and fast. at any rate, i love all of my friends. this has hands down been the best birthday i have ever had. from the cookout at jesse's to last night getting shredded at the graveyard. my mom also cooked the best birthday meal i have ever had which was topped off with homemade tiramisu. all together, 22 is turning out to be fabulous.

work work work

2008-08-21T10:53:00.000-07:00

slowdive rules

and so does mayhem.

higher

2008-08-18T14:41:00.000-07:00

i am so fortunate to have the friends that i do. the time i spent with david friday and saturday, the time i've spent with zach and brian last night and today, my band, etc. as anyone who is close to me may know i usually fall in to ruts. most are self-manifested that i dwell on and bum myself out. life though, is beautiful. i am stoked though, on account of recently aquiring these.

DIOR HOMME
2008/09 Autumn Winter
Raw Pantalon Jeans Bas 19 (Noir)

and i'm about to buy these TUK beatle boots.

so anyways. i saw the new joy division documentary last night and it was fucking amazing. the story hit so much harder being told through those who lived it. annik is a hot old lady. i kind of have a crush. haha. i need food. my body craves. i must hunt in the savage garden... for pasta.
this is the song i am leaving with that does so many things for me right now.

Two Days Straight

2008-08-12T09:15:00.000-07:00

Off of work. this is the first time i have had two days since i was like a junior in high school. i might not have had a job some of the time, but when i worked it was a shitload. sadly, the dior jeans i recently bought had back pockets that were unfortunately small. fortunately, i sold them for what i paid like three days after i bought them. this means, i can get new ones. i actually need to leave, like, now to go to the post office before i start my day full of trivial errands and shopping. i leave you with these though.

common projects patent hi-tops. drooling fool.

1988

2008-08-11T12:52:00.000-07:00

Let me tell you why 1988 was such a great year. These two albums.

&

The debut of danzig AND moz. two men that changed popular music forever, and changed me.
first, i heard the smiths when i was fourteen and was completely blown away. my brother gave me "meat is murder" on cassette and i've been a huge pussy ever since. morrissey as a solo artist though, somehow spoke to me on a much more personal level. i joke constantly, but i still live my life on morrissey therapy. breakups, friends, coming of age, whatever it may be, mozzer is there for me.
second, the misfits are essentially what got me into punk/hardcore. i was thirteen, i loved black metal and dark culture, and yet this new band that my brother had also gotten me into wore makeup, black, and sang about skulls and killing. "how could that be punk?" oh, the beauty of it. misfits opened the door to AFI, to reach the sky, to bane, to trial, etc. etc. and down the dreary pipes i went. these two men alone shaped my adult life. and years later after my tastes had developed and changed, the dark early seventies metal yet bluesy feel of danzig became so appealing. the dark lyrical imagery of twist of cain, summer of my soul, am i demon, enshroud all who listen in the gnarliest darkness. the first two albums always bring me back down to proper evil, no matter how much slowdive or bjork i'm listening to. haha.

Cloak

2008-08-06T22:52:00.000-07:00

it's two in the morning and i can't sleep. first i'd like to acknowledge how delicious pinot noir is. second, i'd just like to share one of my favorite collections ever. it's cloak's fall 2005 line. get into it.

on a side note, molly ringwald looks terrible with black hair in stephen king's "the stand". gnarly movie. gnarly enough to stress me out hard as a kid, but she looks so much better as the red-headed claire. the x-files is really the only thing on. i forgot how bizzare this show is, but it's not all that bad. i need to sleep. need sleep. sleep.

Serious Dilema

2008-08-04T10:55:00.000-07:00

Should i make the switch to the money clip/compact wallet? i've found some amazing wallet/money clips lately. both dior homme. one is a patent leather, six compartment wallet more clip size:

one is one of the tuxedo line and is a straight clip:

i'm awfully tempted, but i'm afraid of my left back pocket feeling naked. decisions decisions. also, i just bought a new pair of dior homme jeans. fall 07' line. noir with pressed wrinkles. i'm excited. AND i bought a new beanie finally. i've been skimming by on whatever beanie i could find so i'm glad i finally splurged for the winter. black prada fool.

oh, and if you've never seen the alfie remake with jude law, you really should. it's fucking great. now i'm off to my LAST day of class with van michael. mmm that feels good to say.

my birthday is in 25 days

2008-07-31T08:31:00.000-07:00

so i feel as though i've been a little out of it lately. my mind and body have been kind of somewhere else. i've definitely lost too much weight and i'm not even trying. i decided to get back on my workout regiment. my goal is to gain fifteen pounds by christmas. in light of this, i'd like to give a list of my top five albums to pump to.

(in no particular order)
1. metallica - black album
2. satyricon - volcano
3. rammstein - sehnsucht
4. danzig - s/t
5. tragedy - vengeance

hopefully with the aid of said records, whey protein, flax seed oil, and a determination actually fill out a jacket i'll actually get something accomplished. i'm looking forward to fall/winter this year. i feel like i'm in a much better place and state of being this year. i also feel like i'll dress slightly better this coming fall on account of accumulating some pretty gnarly pieces. i also feel like slightly different inspiration will make a big difference. i will say one of the most important factors when dressing one's self is inspiration. this year i'm somewhere between stuart sutcliffe, hedi slimane, george harrison circa 1964, and the fall 08 van assche dior collection. clusterfuck of influences? eh no big deal. on another note, the movie of the moment:

eastern promises

phenomenal. best movie i've seen all year. viggo mortensen is such a hardass. the best line in the entire movie is after naomi watts explains that he can't buy her father's old motorcycle and he says "sentimental value... i've heard of this." haha so good. also work is going so fucking well i can taste it in my spit. i'm finishing class next week. i'm getting another promotion in two weeks which leaves only one more between me and van michael cutting floor. i'm due to begin training for their education team in march or so. etc etc. there is a guy in octane that kind of looks like seth green around 97'. hahah. i must leave to gather weekly groceries and eat. if you can, download the songs "something" and "i me mine" by the beatles, and "adore" by das pumpkins. listen and step into my world for a minute.

Something

2008-07-24T10:18:00.000-07:00

i can tell today is going to be a good day. i slept in. i ended up not having to cut someone's hair before going in to work to cut numerous other people's hair. my turkey and brie sandwhich was so on point, and this is my first day with my new reveal watch.

so tight, except mine has a stainless steel mesh band. anyways. i was thinking yesterday when a work colleague of mine asked how i'd been. i responded great aside from being in a bit of a rut last week. when they asked "soo what exactly is a rut for sean bruneau?" i responded a laughed after doing so. i realized that whenever i'm in a so-called rut it's completely self-manifested and usually trvial. work has ups and downs. no big deal. i'm young so what's the rush in not being single? i live well and i'm doing well. it just sounds rediculous to me when i complain about life? i know far too many people that don't float in the boat that i do, and it feels good to say. anyways. dark knight is phenomenal. the beatles fuel my fire. i'm in need of a new danzig shirt. i'm in need of weather cold enough to put a jacket on.

Fuck

2008-07-17T08:35:00.000-07:00

Fuck July. Fuck the Summer. Fuck all the times I've wanted to die. that said, i never emerge from a thursday morning meeting without a somewhat bitter aftertaste in my mouth on account of waking up seven hours before i have to be at work. no matter. i'm awake, and i'll take this opportunity to do a few good things with my day. groceries, lunch with zach, etc. speaking of food, i want to address a revelation i had last night. the calzone to the stromboli. i ate fellini's last night as i do alot, and i got a calzone instead of pizza. my only other experience in a doughy treat was a stromboli i'd had at johnny's and i'll say that calzones suck. strombolis are so delicious and have the perfect dough to cheese and meat ratio. calzones are all cheese, and while i may not be vegan anymore i still am grossed out by dairy overload. i don't even drink real milk (silk goes way better with cereal, fools). so, if you like calzones, you are a fool and you should look into making the switch. i feel better now. i also feel better having gotten my hair cut last night. growing out doesn't really work for me, so i have regressed back to the military haircut. it works, i work it. i must go meet zach for lunch now. i leave on these beautiful things that should be looked into today, or as soon as read.

the beatles - a hard day's night

ulver - blood inside

ulver - shadows of the sun

trinity blood dvd

vitamin energy

xo

2008-07-15T15:04:00.000-07:00

alot going on. i rarely have two days off in a row, and this week has given me two days to get things done. first of all, sateen sheets are the shit and as of tonight i will be basking in their glory. second of all, i can only think of a few things that give satisfaction comparable to getting your car detailed. i think i'll go see "chronicles of narnia: prince caspian" tonight by myself. i love going to see movies by myself. you can concentrate and become part of that world, and you don't have to listen to someone's incessant babbling. also, skincare is the jam and anyone who cares somewhat about how they look should get into it. aveda tourmaline moisturizer with spf, tourmaline firming eye creme, spray toner, and tourmaline exfoliating facial scrub. so good. anyways, i've got ironing to do and only so much time to do it because i've still got to meet my dad for dinner and i've still got to cut some fool's hair. i leave on this beautiful that has brought me so much joy this week and will continue to do so for an undisclosed length of time.

the anthology that began my obsession and was lost for so long is now mine and will continue to refuel said obsession. so gnarly.

In Heat

2008-06-26T09:55:00.000-07:00

I am wearing shorts right now. you know it is hot as fuck when i am wearing shorts. but i will say, and i will stand by this until the day i die, that the best shorts in the world are simple black dickies cut-off. i've had the same shorts since i was eighteen, and they still fit like a charm (by the sit a little higher up now haha). vacation was phenominal. the only thing i did was lay on the beach, drink frou frou shit, read lust for life (so amazing), and play cards. i managed to escape said environment untanned as well. so now i must go grocery shopping for the first time in two weeks but i leave on this note.

and

motherfuck john wayne

2008-06-12T08:06:00.000-07:00

the iced chai latte i'm sipping on inspires me. as much as i am a follower of the apple faith, look at how beautiful this new zune jukebox is.

how is it that by merely having peter saville's "unknown pleasures" design i am contemplating spending $400 on a gadget that i probrably won't even use in lue of my ipod. anyways. i'll be leaving for a week long vacation to mexico in three days. i will be soaking up all-inclusive luxury in playa del carmen at some lush resort that i can't remember the name of. i plan on finishing atleast one book, maybe two, and i'm going to buy a sketch book tonight so that i can start doing some sketches again. vacation is about doing as much nothing as possible. usually i'm not even down for going on little snorkling trips or things of that sort. unless i'm going to some gnarly ruins, i'm not setting my book or my beer down. so i conclude with photos of things that inspire or interest me right now.

the cure - disintegration

early beatles era

tim hartley's superb hairdressing

the always classic leather all-stars.

dior homme fall 06' key jeans

and last but not at all least, the british office.

and so i must go. my stomach craves food. i must eat.

up for sale

2008-05-31T11:15:00.000-07:00

for today, get into it. for tomorrow, get out and live.

forever dita

2008-05-29T10:01:00.000-07:00

emerge

2008-05-24T10:15:00.000-07:00

over the last few days i've felt myself becoming ill. the ill that you can still function on so you continue to work and carry on, and you only worsen your condition because you're too stubborn. so last night when i got off work i decided to post up. i bought a bottle of sinus and allergy med., a bag of swedish fish, and pack of liquorice and decided to stay in and let it fight itself. i slept fourteen hours with a few hazey awakenings. i felt hungover this morning. sleeping like that makes life seem to stop. every time you look at the clock it doesn't seem to be on. every time you look at the windows the light seems to dim. the beauty though, is when i woke up this morning i felt fully rejuvenated. i haven't felt this good in weeks. i enjoyed a majestic breakfast, and here i sit sipping iced green tea tropical and listening to refused. today holds great things, and so i leave you on this note.

visual stimuli

2008-05-22T10:45:00.000-07:00

my infatuation with stuart sutcliffe grows. i finally received backbeat. phenomenal movie. it has inspired me some much that i actually decided to wear regular black leather boots with my jeans last night, and it felt strangely comfortable. on another note, i just picked these up,

and they are amazing. so i have to get serious for a minute here. i feel like no matter what i'm haunted by ghosts from the past. people who i try to carry on without, yet the still catch up with me somehow. these people, these ghosts, make it hard to stay focused and to concentrate on the tasks at hand. why for fuck's sake can't i just live my life without any shit? is it the shit that makes us who we are? is it the shit that defines us? is it the shit that eventually ruins us? shit stinks. i'd rather the smell of black currant and vanilla. i'd like to start a band that has a pre-goth/post-punk feel. i'd like us to dress in boots, slacks, and ties. i'd like to sing about a constant self-manifested somber state. i want all of the lights off except for candles lit on top of each amplifier. i've always wanted to do a band like this more than any other band. hopefully it'll happen before i'm too fucking old to enjoy it. i'm off to work. viva life.

howl

2008-05-08T09:55:00.000-07:00

so last night i ended up at the local sipping on a guiness as i do on so many other nights. during a conversation that i was having with a good buddy of mine about unfortunate circumstances of another great friend, i realized for the first time that i am actually doing great. i'm happy, and i'm doing well at all of those adult things that seem to matter when deciding on someone's standing and status. i feel like with 22 approaching soon i am turning over a new leaf in my life. i want to make the absolute most of myself. i want to be the best at cutting hair. i want to make music that touches people again. i want to read and gain all of the knowledge possible. i really want to start drawing and painting again (which requires time and motivation and i usually only have one of said options). i want to be there for my friends as much as possible, and to be that guy that people truly feel honored to know. i want to either love all of the women possible, or be unconditionally loved by just one. i want to dress so that i intimidate people around me. i want it all. i want the world. for now though, i really just want my ink and dagger shirt and my new backbeat dvd to come in the mail. speaking of backbeat, i don't know if anyone really listens to the beatles anymore, but let me just start by saying they made me who i am. the beatles were the first band i obsessed over. growing up, i knew every word to every song and every bit of history from their sciffle-days with the quarrymen to the last show on top of abbey road studios. recently i just got back into them, and i am going to once again purchase my favorite c.d.s as well as both films again. stuart sutcliffe was so nauseatingly cool. how can can the beatles 60-65 period be topped by anyone? goddammit what an amazing band. what an amazing day. this summer is going to be great.

here's to:
-black shirt, black jeans, black shoes.
-dark sunglasses and spf during all moments spent in the sun.
-building my record collection back up.
-desperately attempting to grow my hair back out.
-the search for a woman that somewhat resembles dita von teese.
-indulging from time to time in the guiness and the camel.
-living life with or without mistakes, but embracing either or.

too much coffee

2008-04-17T09:25:00.001-07:00

motherfuck waking up early on my day off for a meeting. although, i feel somewhat motivated by said meeting, i still would like to have slept in. i cut hair at the best salon in the country, just so you may know. i mean it really is. i get vidal sassoon training for free, i am always booked, and i have nowhere to go but up. so last night i ran into some great old friends of mine. the conversation really made me think about things, namely relationship type issues and how the relate to my life right now. i think that i deserve someone amazing, and i think i have been selling myself short. as of right now, i can honestly say i am completely content with just being a young and single guy. i love my space, i love my time, i love my job, and i don't know that i am ready for someone who isn't completely worth it to come along and disturb things. that said, i, sean bruneau of evil descent, am now doing what is in my best personal interest and am looking out for my own ass. speaking of my own ass, how amazing are these jeans?

AND how amazing is it that they also look amazing on me right now? now if i could get these shows to pair up with them, it would just be unbearable.

so anyways. i've got to run to meet my buddy zach for lunch. if you haven't ever seen dark city, you really should take it upon yourself to pick it up. it's directed by alex proyas who also directed the crow. it's one of the best science fiction movies of all time, and i stand by that statement. out into a world so full of crashing bores.

2008-04-15T12:31:00.000-07:00

i am all too lazy about blogging. i suppose it's for the best because i'd be very sad if all i had to occupy my time was sitting on the computer bitching about life. i can't do that though. life is really too good for me to bitch about. with the exception of all of those emotions that always get the best of people at all times. that's really pretty amazing to think about. it doesn't matter how content one is, how great work is, how many supposed "friends", there will always be moments of sadness, silence, and solitude (excuse the raison d'etre ref). why is it though that there are plenty of nights where all i want to do is lay in bed at home and not speak to anyone just so that i may stew in my self-manifested somber mood. on the other hand, at only 21 i've built a great career for myself, the people i would try call my friends really care, i'm in great health. i digress. oh woes me. haha i mean, really. it's too hot today. i wish yesterday's cold weather would've have seaped it's way into today. just recently i've decided i want to change my apartment, and if i can't do so i'll move. for the last two years i've been living in an environment as contemporary as i can do. i want to take things a little darker and more comfortable. i want everything black. wall, ceiling, floor is possible, although i may have to compormise. i want black velvet curtains. i want a motherfucking armoir. i want candles galore. you get the picture. i want my house to resemble something lestat would've lived in in nineteenth century new orleans, but all black. i'm a dweeb, but it's totally acceptable and expected.

anyways. octane is alive. i am alive. i need to go do something.

i digress

2008-03-23T15:32:00.000-07:00

so it's sunday afternoon. usually i'm knee-deep in haircuts by this time of day, but on this holiday that is of absolutely no importance to me i am off. now, i woke up this morning extremely relaxed and elated with the thought of having nothing to do. i started off with a little octane, i ate a delicious breakfast at murphy's, walked to little five and bought a record, and now i am on my second trip to octane. i have nothing really to write, i only want to elaborate on what i'm into right now.

Dior Homme Fall 2008 Collection:

Raf Simons Fall 2008 Collection:

Interview With the Vampire.

Arcana's entire bodyy of work, namely ...The Last Embrace.

Danzig II: Lucifuge.

Gustave Dore's Paradise Lost.

And lastly, my beloved Guinness.

So the night is still somewhat young, and my hetero lifemate and i crave food. Brewhouse Cafe. No drinking. Detox, not retox (although turbonegro made retox a very awesome word).